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I’m not the
only kid who grew up this way. Surrounded by people who used to say that rhyme…
About sticks and stones. As if broken bones hurt more than the names we got
called, and we got called them all.
So we grew up believing no one would ever
fall in love with us. That we’d be lonely forever. That we’d never meet someone
to make us feel like the sun was something they built for us in their tool
shed. So broken heart strings bled the blues as we tried to empty ourselves so
we would feel nothing. Don’t tell me that hurts less than a broken bone.
I cried myself to sleep.
Everything was joy and happiness, jokes and fun, friends teasing other friends; but at the end of the day it was just me and my thoughts, those who make you question every inch of insecurities you have and the only thing left was to cry until falling asleep.
The Misadventures of Awkward Black Girl by Issa Rae
I don’t think there is another book that I can relate to more than this one. Issa Rae already stole my heart with her web series of the same title. She is funny, ridiculous, charming and totally awkward.
Her book tells of having to balance her American and Senegalese cultures while growing up in 1990s California. Wearing different hats in each country and being seen differently in each country can mess with your identity, especially when you still don’t quite fit-in in either country.
All of the American cultural references brings you back to the 90s and early 2000s. You can see where her awkwardness comes from. It’s a combination of her inability to belong, her desperate need to belong, and a deep well of ways to express herself that makes her the success that she is today.
This book made me chuckle out loud, feel her otherness and hear her voice narrating a life that was similar to mine.
I give this book 5 writing hands because she inspires me to want to get my story out there as well.