I’ve never liked my back. It lacks definition. It’s the main source of all the pain I experience everyday. My shoulder muscles are always tight. If they’re touched, you’d think I was all tense when I’m not. Treatment only helps temporarily and is so expensive so I can’t get it done as much as I’d like. I suffer from an anterior thoracic curve and mild scoliosis. It’s been hard to accept that I can’t fix these and that my body experiences so much pain from slight imperfections in my structure. On top of that, my shoulders are so broad. There’s nothing terribly wrong with that, it just causes to not like them. I’ve lost so much weight in a matter of days so my body doesn’t feel like mine.
But this isn’t meant to just say I hate parts of myself. I need to work on loving things I can’t fix. That make me who I am. My body is beautiful to so many’s eyes and I hope to see it like they do some day. And maybe if I show what I struggle with, I can start improving.
*please don’t leave comments saying how you don’t see any flaws or you’re still attracted me despite them. This isn’t about what others think, rather what I think and those kind of comments are derogatory. If you think I’m beautiful, say it. If you relate to this, say it. But please be kind and gentle. This is about breaking from my pain and struggles*